When I was watching Watch Out For the Big Grrrls
I constantly had to stop myself from making comments like, “Did they have to shoot her from that
angle?” or “Eeeehhhh, I wouldn’t have worn that
if I knew I was going to be on camera.” One of the contestants, Asia
— who probably closest represents my body type — challenged me the most. Sis was killing the looks. Every episode, she owned her style, her body, and her sensuality. Yet, I found myself commenting on what I would and wouldn’t wear if I was her. But that’s the point: I’m not her. And if I’m being honest with myself, I yearned to be where she is. I’ve only begun to tap into my sensuality and identify what sexy looks like for me and her confidence made me feel threatened.