“We got pregnant early 2017, and didn't work out...got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn't work out. Got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn't work out," the country music star said. "So, at that point, it was just kind of like, 'Okay, like, what's the deal? What is all of this?'”
Underwood explained that it was difficult having to put on a smile in public, despite what was going on behind closed doors. But besides family and friends, what kept her going was work, which she referred to as “therapeutic.”
“Throughout the whole process, you know, I'm writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I'd have a writing session, I'd be like, 'Let's go. You know, I can't just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this,’" she said.
While those moments "sucked so much," Underwood says "things are looking better” and credits the experience with bringing life to Cry Pretty.
According to Underwood, the album's title song is about trying to put on a happy face in the midst of personal turmoil, and sometimes not being able to. Struggling to carry the emotional baggage of the miscarriages directly influenced the lyrics: "I hold my composure, for worse or for better / So I apologize if you don't like what you see / But sometimes my emotions get the best of me / And falling apart is as human as it gets."
"I feel like there's a lot of songs, there's several songs on the album that came from that, you know, or I connect with in a totally different way because of those experiences that we went through," Underwood said.