I worked really hard, but I didn’t dare to have ambition — I just wanted to stay employed in a field where I was told to be grateful to have a job at all. I leap-frogged between contracts. I didn’t have anyone to throw me a line or even make an introduction, so I applied cold. I dealt with editors assigning racist tropes as stories, being mistaken for two other brown women at a newspaper, called “insubordinate” by an editor for pursuing a story two others told me to chase, and was repeatedly advised that there was no audience for my ideas. So, I tried to fit in, warping my pitches to appeal to what Canadian media often means when they say "audience" — middle-aged, moneyed, white.