“About a year ago, I decided to stop dieting and chasing this idea of a body that I was conditioned to believe is the only acceptable shape,” Mendes wrote. “I was never concerned with weight and numbers, but I cared a lot about having a flat tummy, no cellulite, and those ‘give that girl a sandwich’ arms that make you look slender from every angle.”
Mendes went on to explain that she later learned to stop obsessing over the “little details” of what she ate and instead more on if she was drinking enough water, getting enough sleep, and eating enough veggies. In other words, “trusting that I care enough about my well-being to make healthy choices more often than not.”
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in honor of #NEDAwareness week: about a year ago, i decided to stop dieting and chasing this idea of a body that i was conditioned to believe is the only acceptable shape. i was never concerned with weight and numbers, but i cared a lot about having a flat tummy, no cellulite, and those “give that girl a sandwich” arms that make you look slender from every angle. when i stopped obsessing over the details of my everyday dietary choices, i started thinking more generally: am i drinking enough water? getting enough sleep? eating enough veggies? i started trusting myself, and trusting that i care enough about my well-being to make healthy choices more often than not. but ALSO i started allowing myself to make “bad” choices. because those made me feel free, and like i wasn’t trapped in an unhappy lifestyle. give yourself the freedom to make “bad” choices. they do not make or break you. they do not define you. i was terrified of giving myself the freedom, of all the weight i could potentially gain. and to be honest, after one year of not dieting, i pretty much look the same. been training more so maybe a little stronger, but mostly i’m just healthier and happier. i’ve finally accepted that this shape is the shape my body wants to live in. you will never win the war against your genetic makeup! anyway i’m not here to tell you how to live your life. i’m just here to remind you that your healthy body deserves love. there is a life for you in which you can be healthy in both mind and body. it’s not always rainbows and butterflies, but whenever i struggle, i always come back to this: why should i care to look like a runway model when my curves got me lookin’ like a damn fertile, renaissance goddess 🙌🏽 find the beauty in your body. i promise you it’s there.
This isn’t the first time the Riverdale star has spoken out about her struggles with an eating disorder, specifically bulimia, which she battled with in high school and college.
"I was so scared of carbs that I wouldn't let myself eat bread or rice ever. I’d go a week without eating them, then I would binge on them, and that would make me want to purge," Mendes told Shape in 2018.
Mendes eventually started seeing a therapist and nutritionist, and is incredibly open about her journey to body acceptance on social media. In her latest post, she urged followers to give themselves the freedom to make “bad” choices, noting how much “healthier and happier” she has been since following this advice herself.
“Whenever I struggle, I always come back to this: why should I care to look like a runway model when my curves got me lookin’ like a damn fertile, renaissance goddess,” Mendes wrote. “Find the beauty in your body. I promise you it’s there.”
If you are struggling with an eating disorder and are in need of support, please call the National Eating Disorders Association Helpline at 1-800-931-2237. For a 24-hour crisis line, text “NEDA” to 741741.