I’ve seen many doctors and been given various diagnoses over the years. Major depression
, complex PTSD
, emotionally unstable personality disorder (also known as BPD
), anorexia. None of these really say much about what I’ve been through. They're just labels for collections of symptoms. Anxiety has been a continuous presence in my life since the abuse. It's been so permanent for so many years that until a few years ago, I didn’t even notice that I felt scared and worried all the time. A state of constant fear was just normal. I’ve had bouts of depression since I was a teenager; some worse than others. This presented as very low moods, trouble sleeping, and a general lethargy that made doing anything at all feel impossibly hard.