21-year-old Kremer first began struggling with anorexia in 2011. “I had just gotten back from a school trip, and I weighed myself, because I felt like I ate a lot of junk food,” she explains. “And so I got on the scale, and I saw the number, and I was like, Oh, my gosh, it's really bad.”
Kremer began to restrict her food intake and in 2013 joined her college’s track team, which ultimately fueled her disorder. “To be honest, I didn’t start running just because I wanted to. To me, that was the fastest way to burn calories and lose weight,” Kremer explains. “I actually fell in love with running, and it became something I really enjoyed…but it felt more like a job…and my personality is ‘all or nothing,’ so I would do it even if I was in a lot of pain.”
These two pictures are almost exactly two years apart from September. The first picture was my sophomore year of college when I started running competitively. I was way over exercising ,not eating nearly enough, had thinning hair, always was cold, counted calories, and had no social life. My ED consumed me and my life. I was miserable inside. The picture on the right was at the beginning of this school year( senior year). This summer was when I truly started to recovery and start to feel freedom. I no longer count calories or weight myself or food. I have a social life, great friends, an amazing boyfriend, and have mended my relationship with my mom. I am no longer scared to go out to eat in fact I get excited about it! I am able to go out with friends and live like a 21 year old. I have come such a long way in just this past 6 months. I do still struggle with somethings and have ED thoughts. But the difference is now I am strong enough to fight them. I know they are all a lie and will do no good. I have so many things I want to do in my life and experience. I told myself I would not let ED get in my way. Everyday is a challenge and a way to better myself. Great things take time and I am dedicated to fighting towards recovery everyday. There is hope after an eating disorder and a beautiful life to live. 💜
Many health professionals, including Janet Tintner, PsyD, a New York-based clinical psychologist who specializes in eating disorders, are concerned about the fine line between health-conscious and compulsive. “Part of the problem is that one feature of the disease is denial,” Dr. Tintner says. “People can be incredibly thin and not realize it. This is the danger, and online, the problem is that if you have a person who’s anorexic, it’s very hard to tell them that they’re heading into an anorexic mindset.”
Happy Sunday!! This morning I made some peanut butter pumpkin pancakes with @tryabouttime peanut butter protein and they turned out so well! They were so fluffy and thick! I will post the recipe in the comments! My mom and I are going to be snowshoeing up the mountain and then watching football later with my daddy! Man it feels good to be home! I hope you all have a great day full of relaxing and fun! ❄️🏉 #pancakes#healthy#health#healthypancakes#nutrition#protein#healthyfood#healthybreakfast#healthyeating#eathealthy#cleaneating#fit#fitness#fitfood#eatforabs#eatforhealth#banana#almomdbutter#breakfast#yummy#pumpkin#peanutbutter
I just hope to inspire other girls, help them, and give them hope, because I know how awful it is. And it can seem like things will never get better.
“I changed [my handle] to @hayls_sprinklesofsunshine because I didn’t want it to be labeled with anything that had to do with health or fitness. That’s not what I wanted my Instagram to be about anymore, really. And I love sunshine and I love sprinkles, and so it just felt like it fit me,” she says. “My journey is a part of who I am, and if people can't accept that and don’t like that, then I don’t need them in my life... I just hope to inspire other girls, help them, and give them hope, because I know how awful it is. And it can seem like things will never get better.”
👈 In recovery from anorexia 👆 at my highest weight ever in my "bulk" last winter 👉 today, working towards a #badassbody! 😏👊 •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• So you guys know I don't share pictures of my body very often, since for me that isn't what working out and eating healthy is all about - even if it is a bonus! I also don't want my Instagram to be about how I look but instead about how I feel.. BUT I decided that I wanted to show you my progress and also share with you my insights. You see, even though these are 3 different looking bodies with different weights I have come to love and accept all of them. Why? Because they are all me. However I may look I will still always be, accept and LOVE me. ❤️ It took so long for me to come to this point, to realise that I am not defined by how I look or what I weigh and guess what? When I realised this and started working with my body because I love it, not against it because I hate it - magic started to happen. Today I am happy, healthy and stronger than ever. Living in moderation, eating 🍫 and drinking 🍷 when my heart needs it and 🐤 with 🍚 when my body need is. I'm killing it at the gym, growing and evolving and enjoying every second. 🙏 I have found my balance. I have found self love and acceptance and I have grown more than I ever thought was possible. ❤️ You guys. Recovery is possible, it is worth it and if I can do it so can you! •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• 👉http://eatmoveimprove.fitnessguru.com
But Eriksson readily acknowledges that it took two years of seeing a therapist-doctor team (with whom she worked while running her Instagram account) for her to reach her goal weight, and now she emphasizes the value of professional help. “[Anorexia] is a mental illness with physical symptoms, so finding the underlying problem is necessary for recovery,” she says.
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Instagram is so far from real life... If you can’t stay distanced, you should stay off those kinds of platforms.
Kremer has now been receiving professional help for over two years in addition to finding support online. “There are people [on Instagram] who say they're recovery accounts and are recovering, but they can be triggering to other girls," she explains. "I definitely tell girls that have eating disorders not to have an Instagram until you get to a place where you can find balance in it, and just do it in a healthy way.”